Crushed

Hello... A lot of things had happened during these few days. Firstly, I fell in love and heartbreak </3. I was in love w this guy... I don't know what make me fall in love w him. For all I know, he doesn't like me..., no feelings and etc. Never mind, it's all over. I don't want to remind myself of him. All I can say to him right now, is goodbye forever. I know my own temper, when I said I wouldn't contact means I wouldn't. No matter how much I miss the person, I deleted his number. I found out that I actually memorised his number, what's the point? He just broke my heart..., I don't know how long it will takes for me to recover. His actions and words hurts me the most.

It's CNY soon. I don't know how to face anyw... I kept crying for these few days. Fml. I love him, but I must forget about him. I don't want my studies to worsen. It has been like this for a few days, I couldn't attend proper lessons, worrying about him. Why did he have to make me worry, break my heart, raise hope for me and crush it again? My verdict is guy sucks. He was afraid of crushing my heart, but he doesn't know that the longer it drags, the more my heart gonna breaks. Well, I didn't plan to make him do anything. I just wanna be friends w him and then I found out that I can't. I still in love w him, care about him more than a friend. I found out that he's avoiding me. So be it... If it is better in this case, I might feel better anyw :) 

I went out w JingWen yesterday. I had so much fun w her, and thanks to her. I cheer up a lot, I <3 her a lot. She came down to find me because I'm ultra late. She is so cute, I'm going to force her to wear wedges because she is so ultra short and cute. Dwarf, and she attacked me! :( BULLY! :) I'm going out w her again on next saturday again. She's my dwarf chiobuhh :) I really like to spend time w her. Even though, we met for the very first time..., we became close for very fast. We played, laughed, guailan each other. We have so much fun together, she's cute and cheerful. PRETTY ALSO! Ohmygod, love her :)