I was kind of confused with myself like what I exactly want from "you". I realised that if I doesn't care about you, I wouldn't be actually going through the extra mile of actually talking to you and asking you what to do. I didn't meant to be demanding, but I actually wanted you to do well. I want you to be able to get through these few years of secondary school life and having a positive impact on you. You always think negatively in almost everything, but does that really makes you happy? It just makes those around you even more impatient because you are always complaining about everything. "Lessons are boring, food is not coming, you're hungry, you hate this and that" Well, nothing's gonna change unless you put an effort into it. I finally understand this, because it has been proven to me. I was satisfied with all I got for my results but then I realised, I wasn't. I know this isn't what I planned to get for the future. You can't always get everything in your way and expecting people to actually go in your way. It doesn't matters or not, because you does not holds a very important place in this world. If there is ever one day, I ignored you and wouldn't tell you your flaws and asking you to do well..., that would be the day that I determined that everything is hopeless because you didn't even bother to put in effort yourself and why should I be the one worrying for you?
Ohya, so there's this girl on facebook recently who posted a nasty remarks about NA people just because she's from Express. I don't see anything wrong because we are from NA. Everyone gets to choose whether they wants to go Special, Express, NA or NT. I made my choice to go NA even though I was given the chance to go Express. I don't actually look down on people, but I do have a few Express friend that literally look down on NA people in the way they talk. They would go like, "Please don't correct me, my standard is definitely higher than you." Just because you're from Express, doesn't means you don't have grammars mistakes, typo and spelling mistakes. When we graduate, whether we chose the path ITE, Poly, MI or JC, it is all our own choice. You're in Express because you managed to do well. But there is also people who are from Express previously and ended up in ITE just because they didn't put in enough efforts. Well, are you "Express people" gonna isolate those people as well? Seriously, everything depends on each and everyone's effort. If you don't put in any, it is obvious that you would receive nothing. Actually, partially is also the NA and NT people's fault. We created the negative image ourselves, we made the name dirty by doing things that are illegal and also using too much vulgarities regularly. If we ourselves managed to change the label that the public gave us, wouldn't it be better than just shooting this girl back for what she had said? I am a NA student myself and I understand that it will be hard for not using vulgarities when we are used to it. Well, everything could be changed if there's effort made. We are always carrying this label that said, "NA is not as good as Express" in the mind of parents'. But does it really in this way now? I don't think so. I had seen NA people who had scored far more better than Express. But Express people always think that it is a fluke of luck or even because the standards are different. Seriously, in the end..., all of us are actually sitting for O level together and that's the only time when NA people could proved to the Express that we earned our results through hard works and really put in effort when it is time.
Well,that's all for today! :)
P.S/: My eyes got infected and gonna go check-up soon! XD
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