Mean bitch is me

Hello!

I realised I am so mean to my ex. Okay, i still got feelings for him though but it is just that I dont feel like being with him again in the future.

He doesnt understands that I do get jealous easily, just that I dont mentioned it so I dont seems like a nuisance. Yes, I dont mind when he text any girls as long as he told me about it. I just dont like when he did that even in front of me, despite the fact that I am no longer with him but I still got feelings for him.

I know all his flaws, but what's the use? I am willing to accept it but if he doesnt accept me then what is the use of the flaws?

I dont want to complain about him, I am just contradicting myself. :/